I suppose that is the right thing to do now. To love myself as I am and start to live my life on purpose, which is to let my soul reaches out to express more of itself. Instead of doing what i should do, i start doing what i want to do; and instead of conforming, I start informing myself about who i am and why I am here. Through this change, my entire viewpoint in life shifts.
Take for example, instead of always complaining about the job, why not view it as a way to improve myself as part of the force that contributes to the nation (well, i know this statement is unconvincing, given the calamitous state of politics here in this country at this moment).
Let me quote you are nice paragraph i read:
Who you are is a miracle and where you are is a place where miracles can happen. As you look back, remembering the person you used to be, the one who was afraid of yourself, other people and the world, who protected yourself by sealing up your heart, you feel at once appalled and amazed at your own resistance to letting yourself really feel alive.When i let go, I do not encounter shame or void. In front there is a fullness of being that had always been there, a fullness that I had never noticed before.
So my destiny is not written in the stars. No way. It is not dictated by others. It is locked in my own feeling and the key to freedom is in my own hand. When I open up my heart, I will know these things.
Once I find the courage to love who I really am inside, it will open the way for me to start living life on purpose. When i break out of the prison of fear and lack, I will surely find magic and miracles waiting to show me the way home to my real self.